~cOnfusEd~

yEap, i've finished re-reading harry potter, all 6 of them.. think i read too fast.. the next bk doesn't come out in a month's time.. but the story was soooo~~ captivating i cldn't stop myself.. i cant wait for the last bk!! and part 5 of the series: Order of the Phoenix is coming out in july as well.. promised iyhb i will watch with her.. no matter what has happened between the both of us, it was her who introduced me to harry potter, so it's only fitting i go with her.. =)

after i've "tackled" harry potter, i now turn to my other collection -- 卫斯理. I have so many books unread.. must try to complete them.. anyway, i was reading this part, when 卫斯理 was talking to his best fren, 家琪. He was saying, "我是你最好的朋友, 如果你不向我发脾气, 那你向谁发?" When i read tt, i was abit.. moved.. i dunno if i have such frens cuz i can never bring myself to be mad at them. Nothing i can say can show how much i cherish my frens.. esp the closer ones.. so even if im unhappy with them, i wun outrightly shout at them.. but it wld b really nice to have 1 such fren.. yeah.. 1 will do.. im easily contented.. =p

Sometimes, i wish for someone to really understand me, how i feel, how i think, how i WILL feel, how i WILL think.. it wld be such a great feeling.. it would be so comforting to know tt there is someone out there who really takes the effort to understand u and know u.. but then at times, when pple make decisions on my behalf, becuz they know how i WILL think(and i do admit they r quite accurate as to how i think).. i feel unhappy.. yes.. contradicting i know.. tts why im so confused..

a "twin soul", or complete authority.. im quite lost.. probably becuz my state of emotions is in limbo now.. i used to 靠岸, so maybe nothing really affects me tt badly.. but now, im like.. lost in the 茫茫大海, any rocking of the boat will unsteady me..

i really wish i wldn't reach a day where i wld shout at my frens(except on the soccer field, that, im sad to say is inevitable.. =p). Anyway, i just wanna make use of this chance to tell my friends, whoever u are.. u hav been wonderful.. thanx for the friendship thus far.. =)