mid-20s crisis

if anyone ever told me that i wld have troubles falling asleep, i wld have told them they r mad.

i admit i dont reach immortal levels like druce, who can sleep anywhere anytime, but tell me i will take more than 30mins to descend into dream land after 12hrs of boring work, 3 hrs of filling meals and an hr of travelling, i wld have IMH take u away. what's more, im a sucker for sleep. if sleeping is a legitimate hobby, i may list it as one of mine! but this, is the very fact of life - i am suffering from insomnia.

i cant exactly rem when did it started, but i will put it to 3weeks to about a month ago. every night i wld find myself tossing and turning, trying to find the comfy sweet spot where my subconsious blurs out. every night i wld be hypnotising myself, chanting *black screen* *white screen* to drive any distracting thoughts out of my mind, and it always worked for me. im not bragging but i wld say i had good control of my mind, at least until the insomnia started.

when i actually do fall asleep - generally 3 things will happen.
1) i get awoken just as i fall asleep. a sudden tick of the clock, a sudden rev of the air-con does the trick easily and i am left starting from square-1.
2) i wake up earlier than i planned to. eg. if i only had to wake at 8 for work, i would be awake at abt 730 and this pisses me off because it makes me feel like i didnt enjoy my full rest!
3) or worst, i dream throughout my entire journey in lala land - which makes me feel i hadnt actually had any sleep.

and this is a viscous cycle. over the later weeks, i find myself on the bed, pondering why on earth, cant i sleep. came up with many theories (how not to with nothing to do on bed but think), and naturally all are the most important things to me in life.

one is money, or the lack of. but hey, who doesnt worry abt money matters.
two is r/s. during that period, was on run of quarrels. once every week was indeed emotionally draining.
three is friends. for a huge chunk of my life, friends are ranked as #1. or at least those whom i hold dearest to my soul. but recent events made me think, "is it really worth it?", "am i doing the correct thing?"

it's maybe 1 or 2, or any combination of the above. but i guess like the law - they'r innocent until proven guilty.